Why do I bake?

I have sat here writing posts about how I have been on a diet. I am not trying particularly hard to stick to this diet. Instead of watching what I eat or even reading about weight loss products I instead decided to bake my family some treats. The result of my efforts was a double batch of brownies. The bowl and beaters of which I had no intention of simply washing up but instead decided to clean of the batter and eat it before washing them. This was absolutely not the thing for someone who is trying to loose weight to do. Eating brownie batter and the subsequent brownies is just not something you do when you are committed to loosing weight. Why I can't seem to stick to this round of the diet is beyond me. It is almost as if my mind has decided that it just wants to be at this particular weight. I need to wrap my head around the idea that I can be at a weight lower than what I am currently at and still be the me that I am accustomed to being. Food will always taste as it always has no matter how much I eat. A little can be satisfying and I somehow need to get back to that realization.